I'm grounded. (still am D:) But I'm in a way, kind of glad that I was. I'm not saying that I want to keep being grounded but during my days of being locked inside my room, I've been reading scripture and listening to sermons on the radio for like 3+ hours daily. 100.1/95.1 :D! lol but a few days ago I was listening to a sermon by Tony Evans...
It was like... about being persecuted.
John 15:18-20
"If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belong to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you. Remember the words I spoke to you: 'no servant is greater than his master.' If they persecute me, they will persecute you also..."
He was talking about how being persecuted is a given, it's going to happen to you. To every christian... That being said... Why aren't I being persecuted? What does that say about me? He said, "Don't be a secret agent christian." Is that what I am?
One thing I realized about myself is that I don't change. In my opinion, I'm pretty good at not doing things that I shouldn't do but it's doing things I should do that I have a problem with. But no matter how much I try, I can't seem to change. No matter how many times I think about it and say, "This time, it's for real," nothing happens. I just go back to the way I was before.
James 4:17
"Anyone who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins."
"When you are serious about worshiping Jesus, you don't care who's sitting next to you or if someone is staring at you from across the room; you worship Jesus."
Does that mean I've never been serious? I need to stop caring so much about what others think. WhatthePIJ. -_-;; ughhhhh.
Romans 7:14-20
"We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate to do. & if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer myself who does it, but it is the sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do- this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it but it is the sin living in me that does it."
Esther 8:7
I understand that it takes courage to risk reputation and even safety to speak out against evil. Remember, though, the greater the risk, the greater the reward. I will be with you in everything you face, & I will empower you to accomplish incredible things for me.
It's so amazing how the Bible has everything. It's so full of people who have already been through what you're going through... It's SO ANNOYING. 'Cause then it means that there's no excuse for you. If they can get over it, then I can as well. I can't keep on being lazy or whatever the heck it is that's holding me back from doing what I need to be doing. asodauiegjhn;kjowng. Stupid Bible :/ I wish I could just stay at this state. You know, say that I've tried and just call it a day... And even so, I know that even after I'm done writing this, nothing much will change. I know that if my brother read this, he'd be like, "DON'T SAY THAT. Stop being so negative." But it's the truth. I'm very aware of what I should be doing but I don't actually move my feet and actually do it. SLOALEIJLWIMF. >:0
LOL. something's wrong with me. :/
I don't like learning. I do, but then what good does it do unless you change? & I don't mind changing one or two things... But I've been learning way too much lately. I don't want to change, it takes too much effort. oihaldgnauedihgsl. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.