post sbc.

I think post means after. maybe it means before? not sure. but i mean it to mean after.

SBC:
i think it was 12 or 10 hour drive? closer to 1o hours. we slept at a hotel and got to the convention center about 3pm on monday... and i roamed around for 3 hours looking like a loser. and then andy and josh came :)...
i lied and said i was going into 11. i should have just stayed in my own group because i later learned that there was jjalsengeen guys in my real group. :(.
i rode roller coasters and i wasn't as terrified as i thought i would be... although they weren't as big as normal roller coasters were.
as predicted by my mom and brother, nothing happened. :/. i took the news better than i thought i would. at first, i was kind of startled. because after waiting for so long, and it finally happening... before i went, i prayed that i would handle the news well, whatever the outcome was. only cried a little. :).
i'm not really sure what to write about in this blog post...
i'm so out of it... still a bit in shock. :(. i was just so ready for it. not to mention all those hours i wasted >_<. my dad wants me to go to boarding school. which i'm all for. you see, the boarding school is in korea and it was created so that they don't have to send students to america for homestay since it's so expensive. instead, they send american people to korea? or something. and they teach on an american curriculum and all... i asked him why and he said: then i can go to korea a lot! -_-. lol my dad... but my mom vetoed. so that was the end of that. i take after my dad in a lot of things and being stubborn and headstrong is not an exception. they did a skit at the convention and presented it to the parents. all the times i watched it, it made me cry. but then when they showed it to the adults, they were like, LAUGHING. it made me mad -_-. i turned brown. the last time i tanned like this was 2+years ago. people are going to think that i'm filipino went to creation museum? i don't like museums. i learned 4 new games. i liked david tauler's sermon about the deserts. :). no retreat high this time. but i'm getting used to this absence of them. i haven't been "high" in 2 years. not sure if this is good or bad. because it means that i'm not going up and down. so it's either i'm always up or always down... o_O? i think that i'm always setting the expectations for myself too high. and i'm constantly not meeting them. and so i'm always discouraged and always putting myself down about those things. but it's weird things i keep raising the bar in. because if i rose the bar for everything, i would be a perfect person. which i'm so far from -_-. so rambly. but i'm tired. and today was my first day of summer gym. and i'm so sore from 6flags. D: the whole car ride back, i was sleeping :). not sleeping the last night was so fun. lol. not sleeping is like an alternative to being high. :D. and then we played rat screw and it was so weird... like, cheating. LOL. so funny... blah. and now here i am. i think i kind of grew up in this retreat. but not in ways that you would think. like, i didn't mature from the sermons or the talks or w/e. and it's so little and so subtle that only i notice it because i didn't mature outwardly(?) like it wasn't something that affects others. it's not something that affects my grades, school, family, anything. it was more so something that affected only me. after the "news" broke in, during the service, the verse that kept running through my head was proverbs 16:9. We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.
one thing i love to do is plan. i can spend hours and hours just making lists and planning. replanning. thinking. ahhhhh... for me, it's fun. even for sbc. i think i spent like 2-4 hours just thinking about it. and i made lists for what i would bring. pictures for what i would wear. i mapped out what time we would leave. when we would arrive. what clothes i would wear on what day. etc. such a waste of time...
omgpop gave me 100 coins for signing in today. yay! ... -_-. what the heck is omgpop coins
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i think i'm done my, being "overwhelmed" lololol. second retreat/convention of not "liking" anyone after it. YAY FOR MATURITY!! :).
i think im not grounded anymore. my mom didn't say anything when i went on computer. o_0?
now i have to go look for the cheapest ti83 plus calculator so i can get my report card. although i'm terrified of getting it back. D:
goodbye. i shall be posting videos on facebook.
not many pictures this time :/
the pool smelled like poop. D: