recap !

tuesday-> went to driving range w/brother... coldddddd....
wednesday-> went to UMD and got tour... saw squirrel eating from funion bag from testuto. lolool. saw Isaiah and Brian... met Damon, Jeremy, and... Christine? ... or was it Caroline... o_0... so cold! went to DC. had 'five guys' for the first time ever :o... no joe D: lol
thursday-> made mashed potatoes... im not really a fan of thanksgiving food. it's like, ehh;;
friday-> centreville, va. fairoaks w/ gracejung & andycho. so many people and i didn't even buy a thing after 4 hours of looking around the mall -_-;; grace gave me her diary and andy gave me OMG puahaha. grace's diary is soooo funny. :D.
saturday-> birthday! did absolutely nothing during the day :D. and then went to a house warming and then played a THREE HOUR GAME of risk! funfunfun. i was so close to WORLD DOMINATION. argg. stupid brother has to win at EVERY STUPID GAME we always play ><;;
sunday-> church... got 20 bucks ! hehe... and then hawon called me at home for directions... idk how to read a stupid map. -________-;;. took like 20 minutes to explain. D:

oh man. during retreats and stuff, i realize that i don't make much of an effort to try and befriend new people. i just stay with my own group of friends... thank God for fb (;
hmm... brother's birthday today... WHAT A BUTTHEAD... -_-;;
im sick now. my snot is yellow. ^0^;;
I've been thinking... def. try and do early grad.... and maybe thinking about psychology...? idk... maybeeeeee... give it some more time... some more thought...
I've changed so much this past year it's so surreal. im so glad i've changed though. i'm able to open up more and i'm able to talk about my problems and situations easier. i'm able to say what im really thinking. and w/ God, i've come closer to Him than ever before. i've learned that emotions and feelings will come and go, they aren't reliable. as a person, i'm learning not to so rash. i'm stronger in knowing where i stand and i stick to my decisions with a lot more ease now... i've learned who my real friends are. i've learned so much about others as well. things right now might not be the best but the complications that i'm dealing with now is nothing i can't overcome.
Here's what I've thought about in the past...
what about a pastor's wife? i mean, it's just a thought but... it's all i've ever known, right? being in a pastor's family... to not would just feel so... weird... I know that at times it's going to be so stressful and it'll be hard to deal with sometimes but i think i can handle it... there are times when i just hate being a pk but i would never choose otherwise. the blessings that come with it are just so much greater. i know i don't even know a fraction of what my parents go through but i still think just maybe... ?