RAWR.

i hate today. i hate yesterday. i want my sleep. i need my sleep. gah.
yesterday, i cussed for the first time in FOREVER. and then after that, it just all started pouring out. >_<. not necessarily all out loud but in my head... gahhhhhhhhhhh. i think the devil works through my brother and gets to me. lololol. >____<. but my head. i keep cussing now. >_<. NO. blah. it took me so long to get this far. -_-;;.
i hate choices. BLAH. im too lazy to do any sports this year. but i went to the coach to see about soccer and he gave me this HUGE lecture about how much i already missed from missing the first two days -_- and then he made me late and my mom gave ME a hugeeeeee lecture and was like spewing out all this crap to me. ahhhh...
i hatehatehate it. :p
we have a revivle <- spelling... o_0? boongheh. LOL konglish<3. tonight. and blah. yesterday, i came home from church at like past 10:30. and tonight im prolly coming late again... AH. i hate this. and then like... korean elders think americans are so fat and so stupid. -_-;;. they prolly are. but then they think im stupid. -_-;;. and then them thinking that im stupid makes me feel stupid and so when they ask my questions i talk really quietly and they can't hear me and so they think i can't speak korean... and im not too good but still... -_-;;. im so stupid.
joe. it worked. IT WORKEDDDDDDDDDD! MUAHAHAHA. (:
oh and. okay, and so i thought about your analogy. and i think that it's like, i've "worn" the parachute for so "long" (although it hasn't been that long... but w/e) that i've gotten so used to wearing it that i feel like im not wearing the parachute. i've become so comfortable in it that i don't even realize i have it on.
i wish life was like sims. like, you get friendship points w/everyone you meet. and so you know if you're friends w/someone. you know if you like them. you know etcetcetc. and then like you can force yourself to do things that bore the crap out of you in real life i.e. hw. -_-;;. i like sims. except for the whole, it takes 5+ minutes to pee. -_-;;.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. dt. im praying. im waiting. :).
ughhh... i keep getting so overwhelmed with all this stress. but im not even sure WHERE the stress is coming from... >_______<. blah.
i sent sara's letters in the mail yesterday. took up TWO WHOLE STAMPS. -_-.
i realllllllllllllllllllllllllly REALLY need to stop talking so much. esp. w/filling my mouth with ng stuff. >_<.
my stalker stopped stalking me. yay.
someone asked me if i was chinese today. -_-.
nd... im being a butt. and i know i am. sorry. my head's too busy right now -__________-;;. and i kinda didn't get over that last thing. >_<.