the end.

last nigt, i had another fight w/ the mater. You know, one of those fights where you keep fighting, even though you know you're going to lose. and you know that whether you'd like to admit it or not, the other person's right. But it just bothers me so much that my mom doesn't really know me at all that i just keep on fighting back. But anyways, my mom's not so happy with me. I guess that makes two of us. It just angers me so much that i have such little self control. i mean, is it REALLY that hard? do i really lack it that much? knowing when to stop... that's easy for me. but actually following through and turning off the computer, starting my homework, going to sleep, just whatever. i'm soo bad at that. so last night i was thinking: how do you get better? and the answer i came up with was to avoid it all together. but... im still so frustrated. this isn't the first time i've gone through this. so why is it SO FREAKING DIFFICULT? gh;sdkjfskld. why do i keep going through this over and over again? haven't i already learned? i need to break my cycle. i absolutely hate this. >:o

and this concludes the life of shalom kim. the end. -_-;;