all that i have, i bring; all that i am, i give

everybody left me on aim. :(.
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You took my heart in your hand
...With a friendly smile,
With a critical eye you scann'd,
...Then set it down,
And said, 'It is still unripe,
...Better wait awhile;
Wait while the skylarks pipe,
...Till the corn grows brown.'

As you set it down it broke--
...Broke, but I did not wince;
I smiled at the speech you spoke,
...At your judgement I heard:
But I have not often smiled
...Since then, nor question'd since,
Nor cared for cornflowers wild,
...Nor sung with the singing bird.

twice by christiann rossetti. i don't get the second part but the first stanza's nice. for some reason it was in my journal? o_0. wonder why.
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today, we got jerseys. im number 12. >_<. i wanted 10. but w/e. -_-. lol. AHAHA. song that comes to mind: "We should get jerseys cause we make a good team But yours would look better than mine, cause you're outta my league And I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday I spend with you is the new best day of my life Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust It's Jealously, they can see that we've got it going on" (relient k's must have done something right)... i don't think i really understand that song though... >_<. but i love the sound of it. :D.
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AHAHA. i love it. how today in the middle of practice i had a sudden craving for steak and then i got home and my parents had steak and brought some home in a to-go box. AHAHA. even stupid things like that... blow me awayyyyy. :D.
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so... the year is already almost 1/4 done. time to evaluate resolutions! -_-. so far, i've memorized 12 verses... it WOULD be like 4 more but i seem to have a hard time memorizing where the verses came from. like the chapter and verse. -_-. stupid numbers.
the ones from bridge:
1) i looked for a man among them who would build up the wall and stand before me in the gap on behalf of the land so that i would not have to destroy it but i found none. ezekiel 22:30
2) "the teacher is here," she said, "and is asking for you" john 11:28
3) DO YOU NOT KNOW that your body is a temple of the holy spirit who is in you whom you have recieved from God? YOU ARE NOT YOUR OWN. 1corinth. 6:19. hahaha. andy helped memorize that one by slamming the table and yelling it. lol. we should totally have to memorize for fh too! :D. lol but i was like the last one to memorize all of the verses -_____-. weird. lol.
4) the obvious one: for God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son that whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life. john 3:16
5) trust in the Lord w/all of your heart and do not rely on your own understanding. proverbs 3:5
6,7,8) had to memorize for sunday school 8) : not that i have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect. but i press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, i do not consider myself to have taken hold of this but one thing i do: forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead, i press on toward the goal for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
9,10,11) always be joyful; never stop praying. whatever happens, give thanks because it is in God's will in Jesus Christ that you do this.1 thess 5:16-18
12) JESUS WEPT. john 11:35. YES. this does count. :D.

>ahaha. aren't you guys proud?! esp. with my crap memory. now, if we do that thing again at fh where you have to find someone who memorized 5 verses, this time, i won't have to cheat like i did last year... >_<

>psalm 30:11-12 you turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me w/joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. o Lord my god, i will give thanks forever.
>& psalms 25:4-5 show me your ways, o Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my saivior, and my hope is in you all day long.

my other goals are going okay... i guess... >_<. like the "finishing the rest of the bible" hm... i read all of the gospels+acts so far... and 1/2 peter... now im currently reading revelations and i'll be done w/new test. and also i plan on finishing psalms. but i haven't really been reading as much as i used to. >_<. uhm... my other goals are okay... relationship between parents & me is the best it's been in a long time. YES. lol. :D. but i better watch out soon. 'cause something's bound to go wrong. x_x. and... musical stuff.. ew. haha. not so much improvement there... except on guitar. i learned how to play some new songs... although i haven't practiced in about a month... x_x. and OH. sat... i took sat prep classes. so i HOPE my score increased a bit. it better have... :p. i think that's about it... im gaining weight. it BETTER be 'cause of stupid calve muscles and not from fat. RAWR. >_<. haha im retarded.
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i don't think im going to be able to go to SBC or MCKBC this year. this makes me real sad. D: stupid summer gym/driver's ed. RAHHH. that means i'll have missed SBC for the 2nd year in a row and MCKBC for the first year in...8 years... basically since i've been going. x_x. i don't really mind so much for mckbc because it's not REALLY a real retreat -_-. lol. it's like 30 min of worship and then playplayplay. hahha funfunfun :D... but before i said i kind of wanted to go to a retreat w/no one that i knew... so i can be free from distractions and such. SBC is like perfect... because i don't really know anyone. it's so big. and im SO QUIET there. it's so weird. i don't say a word... idk why. -_-. it's like introvert to the max. lol. so like, aside from josh and my brother, i don't know anyone. or at least, i don't give a crap what they think. blahh... i need to find a way to go to SBC. :/
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from my journal:
"021009. 4:50pm (:
john 15:13 says, "greater love has no one that this, that he lay down his life for his friends." AHH. i've heard this before but what i just now realized what this has to do w/ Jesus. HE demonstated this kind of love for us, right? He gave up His TEMPORARY LIFE in order for us to have ETERNAL LIFE. AHAHAHA. :). reminds me of bridge. 'temporary gain for eternal loss; temporary loss for eternal gain' "

ahaha. im so slow when it comes to this stuff. :D. and as i was thinking last night... i realized just how true David Tauler was every single time he preached at SBC and MCKBC when he talked about how the bible is essentially a love letter for us. (essentially? o_0. i think that's used wrong. -_-) AHHHSNAP. :D.
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haha such a weird post. :/
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im still waiting for my two letters. :(.
i put angi's not into my memory box. i keep everything in there. AHAHA. im so weird. -_-. all the personal letters i've ever gotten go in there. i don't have any from joe or andy though. :(. COUGHCOUGHHINTHINTCOUGH. haha jk. or am i... o_0? -_-. im stupid. LOL.