he's bigger than godzilla and the monsters on tv. yes, God is bigger than the boogey man and he's WATCHING OUT FOR YOU AND ME. ahhhhhhhhhhaha :D.
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So i've come to the end of my journal. actually, not really. i still have 15 or something pages left but that's besides the point. -_-. so, i always read through my journals once i finish them and so yesterday, since i had very little homework, i set out to kind of skim through the entries 'CAUSE, "forgotten experiences are worthless; that's why it is good to keep a spiritual journal" <- rick warren. ahaha. and i haven't actually read through them so i forgot everything... ahaha... -_-. so ANYWAYS...
gosh. it just reminded me how freaking horrible my memory is. -__________-. i realized sooooooo many things. yesterday was so amazing. freaking awesome. :D. okay. i realized that when things happen in my life, i don't give credit where the credit is due... and i just. blah. lol. i realize what i've been doing... i've been talking about "spiritual dryness" blah blah blah and about being numb for so long that even if all of that had stopped, i wouldn't have noticed any of it. i was basically sticking my fingers in my ears and running in circles, whining about how i couldn't "feel" God... i don't know... maybe it's different now that i'm much closer to getting out of that hole than i was before.
I also realized how blind i am... and how gracious God is... AHHHHH. i love keeping journals. :D. like, i would pray for something... and then when it happened, i just forgot that i prayed for it... and then i would whine in my journal about how God isn't answering my prayers... or in other cases, it's not that He didn't answer them... all i had to do is wait... i'm so freaking impatient... >_<. i counted throughout my journal how many times God had provided for me... sometimes even when i didn't even "formally" ask him. when i was just thinking about things... even during those times when i was falling an awful lot... God still came through and i was just too stubborn and blind to see it... running in those stupid circles, too busy complaining and writing about them when i should have been doing something about it. -______-. oh gosh. haha. "'what if some of them were unfaithful? can their unfaithfulness cancel God's faithfulness?' 'that would be unthinkable!...'" <-romans 3:3/4... ahhh. :). no matter how big or how little my problems were/are. no matter how many times i fall... AHHHHHH. haha :D.
haha. i just wrote like the same thing over and over again in different ways. :D. why do i always write in circles? -_-.
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sooooooo... im getting a lot better. esp. after yesterday. i've never felt like this before. ahaha. makes me so happy. :D.
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i was planning on writing a lot more... but i forget what i was going to write about... haha. but ahhhhh. OH. i made soccer team. PUAHAHA. lol. but. im like, at the bottom of the totem pole... -_-. OMPIJ. someone took my gym bag... what the heck?! -________-. so i came home shoe-less... and i went to store and mall with my mom... HAHAAH. i was walking barefoot... except in the mall. wore my stinky cleats. -_-. but seriously. WHY WOULD YOU STEAL MY GYMBAG? (<- it was from jama.it was blue and it said "JAMA. new awakening" HAHA) -_-. nothing really valuable in it though. except my favorite jeans. RAWRRRRRRRR. hopefully it turns up tomorrow...
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shalom!! did you get my note from hawon??
This entry is great!! and so encouraging. I think it's an awesome idea to write down your prayers. Just so you can look back on how God actually DOES answer prayers...even the little things, or like you said, the things you didnt even really ASK for. Shows us how much God really is watching over us despite our whiny selfishness. Something we so easily forget...unfortunately.
uhh..ok i love you dearly. :D
yay soccer TEAM!! yuh makes meh proudz.
:D loved this post too.
I think i told you this before, but 'remembering' the things that God has done is definitely a big part of fighting spiritual dryness. It brings your mind out of your current state and reminds you of the faithfulness of God. If God has always been faithful in the past, why not now?
I need to do that more. remember what God has done.
In psalm 22 David does that as well. Its kinda funny/interesting how he goes through the passage. He's kinda like us when we post.
God! I need deliverance!
But you are good and I praise You!
My enemies attack me and I have no hope!
But I still praise you and remember you.
:D its like David responded all his struggles with praise and remembrance of God. You can see this throughout the bible.
*on band wagon* Good for you shalom. Fighting evil by night with the power of past recollections once forgot (8
Eh eh eh. I keep a journal, but I get to lazy to write in it, and then I feel bad for complaining x)
I hope you do well @ soccer [even thought you said you were athletically-challeneged when it came to it...]
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