i don't like coming up w/titles. >_<

AHHHHHHHH. I'm so greatful for this four-day weekend. :). Okay. first, I'm still grounded... hehe... LOL. until this sunday. -_-;; but i gave my daddy ice cream and let him watch tv and so he gave me an hour on the computer. LOL. well actually, he gave me two hours but then my mom was like WHAT?! and so i have one hour. -_-;;. hmm... Secretly, I like being grounded. but not really. lol what i mean is, I like being grounded because it leaves me to myself. no distractions... aside from the tv (because when my parents say I'm grounded, the mean no computer)... but that's not a big deal because there isn't much to watch... no cable... sighhhhhh... -_-;; ANYWAYS, i can't make up excuses for not reading the bible because i have nothing else to do. nothing that would serve as an excuse. SO... here's another random post (... random excerpts from my journal):

011709. 9:07 pm.
earlier today I was cleaning my room and came across my BRIDGE stuff and I found something that I wrote down from morning QT. it was something that Sooji unnie (my other small group leader) said while we were praying... i wrote it down hehe. :D.
"we want you to not just be all around us but in us." ahhhhhahaha. yesyesyes (:

011809.
Isaiah 30:21:
Whether you turn to the right or to the left, you ears will hear a voice behind you saying, "This is the way; walk in it."
... Father God, please help me to trust you in this time of change and uncertainty. I want to have faith and to be able to believe that everything is in my family and also my best interest. You know best. AHHHHH! Lord, help me to trust you. Please guide me through these confusing times when I don't know what lies ahead... As this becomes more and more into reality and as the possibility of this grows... idk... it just scares me... a LOT.

012009 2:40pm
mark 4:40: hw said to his disciples, " why are you so afraid? do you still have no faith?"
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mark 5:36: "...don't be afraid; just believe"
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Q. twice, Jesus feeds like a lot of people with just a little amount of food. and before he actually did, both times, the disciples said something like, "where are we supposed to get the bread to feed such a large crowd?" are they that stupid? didn't they learn the first time what Jesus was capable of?
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LOLLLLL. that's so funny. Right after I asked that question, God. you just. AH! lololol. You just amaze me. As soon as I wrote "Are they that stupid? didn't they learn the first time what Jesus was capable of?" I continued on reading...:

17 Jesus knew what they were saying and asked them, "why are you discussing the fact that you don't have any bread? don't you understand yet? don't you catch on? are your minds still closed? 18 are you blind and deaf? don't you remember? 19 when I broke the five loaves for the five thousand, how many baskets did you fill with leftover pieces?"
they told him, "twelve"
20 "when i broke the seven loaves for the four thousand, how many large baskets did you fill with the leftover pieces?"
they answered him, "seven"
21 he asked them, "don't you catch on yet?"
(mark 8:17-21 God's word translation)

are we like that at times? am i like that? am i slow to catch on to the things you're trying to show me? the things you're trying to tell me?... I think so. How you've been working through joe and through scripture , trying to tell me that it wasn't you but rather me, that left. Surely, I am slower. much slower than the disciples. it took me aver a year to get it. you never fail to amaze and to take me by surprise :)... I think i just wanted to pass on the blame. I didn't want to be the problem. Sorry for my ignorance and for being so stubborn.
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mark 9:22-24
22 "... but if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us."
23" ' if you can '?" said Jesus. "everything is possible for him who believes."
24 immediately the boy's father exclaimed, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!"

last sunday school:
hawon woo: so when Isaiah encountered God, he was like "woo is me! woo is me!"
me: ... what? no. you mean WOE is me. not WOO is me... BUT, woo IS you.
LOLLLLLLL. it was so funny. gah. I HATE THIS. blahh. east coast. EAST COASTTTT... gah. having faith. believing God knows better. trusting... gahhhhh. so hard.

I can't believe Joe's moving. :p.

keep posting. I can read blogs in school :D.

ps. im currently reading mark, in case you didn't notice. (: ALMOST done. now i have... luke, john, acts, and revelations and i'm done w/ new test. then, i shall read isaiah and blahblahblah...