in business, we were doing those career cruising things again. and since i already answered all the questions, i had to hit the "answer more questions to improve results" button or w/e that was called... i STILL got basically the same answers i got the last 50 million times i took it. like, elem./middle/high school teacher... but that was a bit lower on my lists... the top ones were along the lines of abuse counselor, addictions counselor, counselor, counselor, psychiatrist, blah, blah... and then i got the criminal lawyer, lawyer blah blah. social services... yeah. and then i got like two i haven't seen before. one was bioethics and physician assistant or something. one of them makes like 3250982405983429283094 money. lolol but i forget which one it was. blah... it kind of worries me... why would i do early grad when i don't even know what i want to do with my life? when i don't know what God has in store for me? and i feel like i'm rushing into things too fast and i feel so unprepared. but then another part of me is like, well, i'll never know until i put myself out there... >_______<
ahhhh...lately... so much friggen stress crap. BLAH. eat me. :p. swallow me up. :p. i have cried at least once every day for the past month, i believe. and i keep saying that. but it's so weird. i once went like 6 months without crying once and now i'm such a cry baby. T_T;;. I guess it's just that there's so much uncertainty in my future now... and since it's coming to the end of the year, teachers are loading craploads of work in. i have like 7 projects/tests every week. ew. and in my math class, the one where we just sat and did nothing in, we're actually doing work now... and my mom's being so DSFHSDKFJSKJ lately along with my brother being so SDIOFJSOIDJFSLIJ as well... and the stupid counselors won't email me back...ughhhh. still haven't opened up my bible... and then it just gets me more fired up at how my other half has still yet to be found. and then that just makes me want to cry all over again. OHBOY. what's become of me now. -_-.
i freaking fell up the stairs again. that's twice in two weeks. stupid flipflops. >:p.
so i have a friend and we were friends for about four/five years and then we parted ways when she got into a private catholic high school... i hadn't talked to her in awhile and i talked to her on aim recently. i asked her how her school was and if it was any different than public schools and such... she said they have like mandatory "morning prayer" and other stuff... don't really remember what she said... but she said she didn't really like it. and she kept saying, "you know" after every sentence. like i was supposed to know what that was like. -_-. im probably the most "religious" person she's met which makes me really sad. -_-. lol idk what im talking about. im tired. -______-. anyways. point of this paragraph is to say that i would KILL for my school to do stuff like that. well, not MY school. i hate my school. i mean, i would kill to go to A school like that. seriously. i would love to go to christian school. :(. ahhhhhhhh. i can't wait till first year of college... im going to apply for JAMA's GLDI program thing... (i guess you would call it discipleship training?). fsfkuhdgskudh i wanna go so bad. i really hope they accept...
sigh... my rants are so boring now. i really should write these in my journals so i don't bore the very few people who read this to death but my hand gets so cramped when i write more than one page -_-. typing on computer is so faster.
speaking of journal, i had like only 20 pages left almost 4 months ago and i thought i'd be done with it real soon but the pages go by so much longer than i thought. o_0? weird...
I went to the pool on thursday. i mostly just kind of floated in the water -_-. but my skin still smells of chlorine. :/.
i currently have hand germs and also on my feet but it's too late to take a shower.
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i like the sound you get when you run your fingers down guitar strings. esp in the middle of a song. AHHHHH. love that sound. :). being productive makes me happy... although i have a major tendency to procrastinate. but i multi-task a lot... that's why i knit/crochet too. lol. 'cause when i watch tv., i feel so lazy. -_-. i've always wanted to learn how to play harmonica. it's so cool. you can slip it right in your pocket and i love the way it sounds. i used to have one but i bent it... >_<. i plan on shaving my head before i die. just to say i did. but i don't know how that's gonna work out. prolly won't have the guts to do it. i want to finish watching wall-e. which also means that i get married. LOL. im so weird. i told myself i wouldn't finish watching it until i get married... idk why. -_-. YOU guys make me happy :D. i freaking live off of memories. so sad. when i get bored i just sit there and look through pictures in my camera. SUCH a waste of time. just like looking at stuff for an animal i'll prolly never get. -_-. im retarded. my pogo stick makes me happy. -______-. i've always wanted to play AND FINISH the game of monopoly... but i'm usually one of the first people to go broke so i don't care that much. but also RISK! risk get's pretty intense and i don't die as fast :). i love planning things out... >_<. once i planned out exactly how many kids i would have, at what age i would have them, how many years apart they would be, their american names, their korean names, what sports/instruments they would play, how many pets i would have and what my house would look like. took me like 45i09348509q328412- hours to think and design all that. and it ended up going in the garbage can. idk why i do these things. -_-. when i get older and have my own car... maybe during college break or so, i want to live in my car for at least a week straight. fun experience. :)... i want to go camping outside. never had the chance 'cause of my pastor-ish family. >_<. like... EVERY DAY there's something going on... no vacations ever. :(. 'cause you can't take more than 1 week because sunday service... no more than three days off 'cause wed. night service... and then like, friday is some kind of late night prayer thingy. and then monday is their "resting" day where they sleep in and do squat. lol. and then... blahhh. the list goes on...but then again. i guess going to korea/china last summer would be considered a vacation... but the real reason we went was because my dad was part of like a large revival thingy. so my dad had to go and we didn't go for awhile so we went... any ways, im getting off topic... i like smell of bookstores. :D:D:D:D. it's like a drug feeling. not that i know what that feels like. but it smells sooooo good. i like quesadillas and dukgook. im a packrat i save everything. texts, im conversations, letters... i like the original bomberman and frogger. i like the feeling you get when you like someone. AHHHHHH. love that feeling. >_<. i like touching bruises. and when my limbs fall asleep because they feel funny. i like froggy and my ram :). i like adidas, not nike. i like the sound of the piano. okay. this is getting to be too boring. i'll stop here. -_-. sorry for wasting your time. lol. im going to go to sleep now.
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