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i'm getting better. lol i'm not as emo. i cried only once today :D.

I guess it was kind of a phase I needed to go through... I finally opened my bible after like 3 weeks of being neglected >_<. lol.
I wasn't really sure why I was being all weird and emotional. and I'm still not too sure why even now... it was probably from stress... so much change... but i don't think that was the real/main reason why... But it was like... I just wanted to shut myself away from everyone/everything. Just run away... And so I didn't talk to anyone and stuff... And then while I was doing that, I got pissed off that nobody was noticing that i was acting weird and nobody asked me if i was alright. And I got disappointed at the people around me... i'm so retarded -_-.
When I cried in school, it was because there was this kid and he studders a lot. and the day before, he told me that i should smack him hard whenever he studders so then, he wouldn't studder as much. lol and i was like okay. and then the next day, i was talking to him and he studdered and i remembered so i smacked him but i kind of missed him so it didn't hurt that bad and he was like WTF and he smacked me kind of hard... -_-. it wasn't like THAT bad but it was enough to make me kind of teary and then i was like what the heck... now i'm crying in school? what's wrong with me... and then i started crying a lot more because of that... -_-. and then after i was done crying a few minutes later someone asked me if i was okay and then i started crying again -________________-. lol. then... in 6th period, i started crying again because i read angi's comment. T______________T;;. seriously. angi, i cry so much 'cause of you haha. :D<3.
I'm still a little peeved. but i'm sure i'll be fine.
Today, I cried because my brother was being a butt. But thank God. my prayer was answered. haha. My brother's leaving soon. he got internship at hopkins. YESSSSSSSSSSS. 8)